Release the inner kid
Sunday, June 03, 2012


My exams are over.

Life has been boring before, and during the exams. I did not expect it to be this boring after. Usually, after exams we would all go out to play/celebrate. Sadly, with the exam ending late, with some friends not being free, and most of my other mates serving NS. It was a boring day.

Which is why I went skating tonight. Yes, that totally makes sense.

The distance isn't the focus, but it's the adrenaline. This is the second time I rushed down a really long slope. I find myself grinning when I hit the bottom of the slope, and realized how retarded that made me look.

No fear though, I probably amazed/scared the shit out of everyone nearby.

Both my legs went numb from the trembles of travelling at that speed. The ridiculously high vibration will take away feeling from your legs. But the rush, that sweet taste of adrenaline. Irresistible. 

Of course, I know how stupid and dangerous doing that is. One mistake from landing into the hospital.

I like these thrills once in a while, it revitalizes me. When you're trembling from the fear of death, that's when you know you're truly alive. I think it sounds crazy coming from me and all, but I think that we should release the inner kid in us once in a while.

Don't be afraid to do stupid things. 
(only if you're capable of living past it)

I've been rather reckless when I was a kid. I would skate/cycle at high speeds around the neighbourhood. Without actually knowing what's ahead of me, as it's blocked by a wall. Turning quickly, and realizing it's a dead end, is not a particularly fun feeling.

I've crashed so many times against the wall because of that. Giving me big ugly bruises on my forehead. You know people talk about how time slows down when your senses get heighten? I don't think so, it's more like your brain speeds up in it's thinking, but your physical body cannot keep up with it.
Whenever I'm going to crash, I don't crash without thinking about it.
You will think, and think about how you're going to avoid it. By the time you come up with a plan, you have crashed and landed with a loud thud on the floor, sending pulses of unadulterated pain up your spines.

Even though doing all of these is extremely stupid, it's a nice break from the mundane life of keeping yourself alive as much as possible. On the other hand, I'm also doing this as a form of exercise. As a geek, I sit in front of my computer for  hours on end.

I honestly have no idea why I'm even writing this, I guess I just want to serve a reminder to my future self that, I was once like this. I did things because I wanted to and I felt alive.

May this memory live forever on the all mighty internet.

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