Happy new year 2015
Thursday, January 01, 2015

Happy new year everybody! It's a little hard to believe that 2014 is over. It's times like these that I feel really lucky to have a blog. It's really hard to put a year into perspective if I don't have some sort of reference.

That said, I have barely 20 posts this year. A stark contrast to the hundreds I used to have before entering national service. This however, is easier to digest as I can clearly see the highlights in 2014. I was supposed to write a post last night to review the past year, but December was so lousy I didn't want to taint the last moments of the year with nothing but complaints.

Here are the highlights of 2014 for me. (roughly chronological)

  • Graduated from OETI
  • Entered 41 FMP
  • Got my new phone Xperia Z1
  • Upgraded my desktop case and CPU fans
  • Getting a tank driving license
  • Getting through recovery course
  • Getting past 100,000 views on this blog
  • Went to Bangkok
  • How I Met Your Mother ended
  • Went on a Yatch for the first time
  • Represented Table Tennis for my formation
  • Bought a new Keyboard CM Storm Quickfire Rapid-I
  • Ran a marathon
  • Got past 1 year in NS
  • Went for Exercise Wallaby
  • Went to Bintan
  • Became a CPL (+$50!)

That's more or less everything that happened; excluding some emotional train rides/wrecks along the way. Also excluding all the hard work that totally wore us down.

In 2014, I learned many lessons. Many lessons regarding how to live as a better human being, many lessons regarding how to deal with other people, and problems. Here's something I've learnt that applies to me; it may apply to everyone else but understanding and experiencing it is different. (much like seeing someone get a cut on the hand)

At first, I learnt that I can't make everyone happy. Then I realized why, because no one can be happy all the time. Then I learnt what that means, it means that I have the choice, the power to selectively choose who I prefer to be happy around me.

But I wasn't happy with that, it isn't ideal "sacrificing" someone else for another. Then I realized, I don't really care. It's like there's two sides of me that doesn't coincide. One that cares about the people around me, and one that only cares about myself. It's not like a 50/50 thing, it's more like a 2 X 100%. So I guess the main thing I've learnt this year is how to balance between those two differences; to the point where I can live with the choices I make.

The next thing I've re-learnt is that when you put in effort, people can tell. They may not acknowledge it or even choose to deny it, but they can tell. I guess I've been going on at my own pace for far too long that I kind of forgot what it's like to put in my 100% for something, or someone.

There's many things I've learnt in NS, but I'll save those for another day. For now, I'm more interested in the days to come.

Before I continue, here's a note to self. I'm currenly writing in Q10 to keep myself from getting distracted but it didn't work, this took way too many hours.

Distraction free writing

In 2015, I will finally ORD; on June 10th. Which means there's <6 months left and I can't wait. There will be 3 more field camps which will really test everyone around me, but I'm sure it'll be fun in retrospect.

In 2015, I will finally start school again after 2 long years. I am excited to be able to study once again without much else to worry about. However I saw Math in the curriculum, have to watch out for that.

In 2015 I will add one more year to my age. I know I'm not a kid anymore, and I don't like that. I guess for me, my age really isn't a factor for the geeky things I like to do. Maybe sports will be a little more tiring than before. Maybe I won't want to stay up late to play games anymore. But I guess I really won't know until it happens.

As for a new year's resolution, there's only one.
Work hard.

There's a ton of things that will happen in 2015, when I close my NS chapter and begin a new one, filled with new people and experiences.

Time to start fresh, it's page 1 of 365.

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